October 27, 2010

 

I believe in many things. I have theories about life that are really a bit odd, if you come right down to it. I believe that if you believe in something enough, it will be true, it will happen, it will be. And I’ve been pretty spot on with many things that I’ve had happen in my life. I also believe that I have psychic powers so this may have some influence on the way I think and what I believe will happen, but that’s another blog for another day.

 

One of my beliefs is that you should never worry about anything, because what will be will be, and things will work out the way they are supposed to. So there’s no use in making your life a mess because of how you think about it now. Things happen for a reason, both good and bad, and we just have to accept what is, and not wish for that which isn’t. There’s a reason that things are the way they are. We may not see that right away. But given time, if you look back on your life, you will see that even if things didn’t go according to plan, or turn out the way you’d like, there was a reason for it. And it makes sense now.

 

At the present moment, I am pregnant. It’s not a secret, and most everyone knows about it now. There’s really no way I could hide it. I pretty much look like I’m hiding a watermelon.

 

I know some people who would be going crazy at the moment, if they were two months away from having a baby, two days before Christmas. I know the time will fly by like crazy. The house is not ready for another person. The crib and bassinette have not been taken down from the attic and set up. I still need to wash and sort all of my first daughter’s clothes so we have something to dress the new one in. And we have to make sure that the car seat we have is still safe to use from 8 years ago. Besides all the baby stuff, we have yet to go out and buy Christmas presents.

 

And I have to figure out how to come up with money while I’m on maternity leave.

 

Fun stuff.

 

But I know all will work itself out, one way or the other. I do my best work under deadline, and since we have no idea if this baby will actually come out when she’s supposed to, it’s a rolling deadline so to speak.

 

I could be worrying that there will be a massive snowstorm the day I have to go to the hospital. Or that my water will break while I’m at work. Or that the baby will come out and not be a girl, but instead a boy. But I am instead calm. I have no control over these things. Whatever circumstances arise I will deal with it then.

 

I’ve known lots of people who worry about stuff all the time. It all eventually sorts itself out and they realize there was really nothing to worry about. It was all just in their mind. When I think about it, it’s mostly the men I know who worry more than the women. I’m not sure why. Maybe it’s because women just let things happen and are more up for change than men. Or maybe the men are just too tempermental about things. I don’t know. It is kinda funny though.

 

My advice to you is to relax, let things happen, and take in the present moments . Those are the ones that you influence, that you can control. The future will always be there, and will always be morphing and changing as it should. Look at life realistically, accept that anything can happen, at any moment, and go with it. Flow. Be a leaf on the wind, that has no way of knowing where it will end up but knows it must fall, someday, and rest on the ground. Whatever happens along the way is up for grabs.