It’s been a while since I last wrote. A long time, actually. A new year has begun.

In order to start 2015, I first need to write about all the things i wanted to write about in 2014. But didn’t. For some reason I didn’t find time to write about what I was doing. I have many excuses for why, but as I think about them now, they are all just the same excuses we give ourselves for why we don’t do the things we need to or want to do. I was either too tired, or too caught up with life, or I couldn’t get the images to load correctly, or I just didn’t know what I wanted to write about.

Or maybe I knew exactly what I wanted to write about, and I procrastinated. Cause that’s what I tend to do.

You see, I have a tiny problem. I like to start lots of projects. But my follow through is not so good. I have gotten better these last few months on finishing my knitting projects, and I did actually finish writing the first chapter of my book. So there is some hope that I have beaten the procrastination disease I have suffered from for my entire life.

But I still need to get back to writing on a regular basis.

I usually don’t make new year resolutions, mostly because i don’t believe in them. I think people should focus on changing and bettering themselves all the time, and not just when the new year changes. If you want to do something new, then do it. If you want to be a different person, be that person.

Everyday is a new day to be something else. And you are the only person standing in the way of becoming something truly awesome.

You don’t need money or the support of others to be a different person. You just need to believe in yourself, and know what it is you want to be.

This year, I’m not making a resolution. But I am going to write more. I am going to create things, and do stuff. I am going to imagine the crap out of my book so that I will want to finish it. And I’m going to organize my house, cause i can’t function creatively if my house is in a disarray.

I am also going to get back into my routine of running. I may even attempt to go to kick boxing at my gym. It helps that I have friends who also want to be fit and exercise. I excel when I have others willing to get me out of my own way and exercise. Cause I would be lazy without them.

I need to figure out what I want to write about last year. I took lots of pictures of knitting and things on needles, which are now finished. And I have many pictures of a garden that is now frozen over. So if I write about my garden from last summer, it’s only because I wanted to write about it in September, but didn’t quite make it.

I will be writing a lot in the next few days. I am back at work after a long vacation, and I will be sucked into the workday grind once again. I’m still trying to work out what that will entail, and how I will balance work, family, and me time. Because me time is very important to every person and especially to every mom. You must have time for yourself at the end of the day. If not, you will lose yourself. You need to find what is is that you truly want to do each day, and do it. If it means reading for 10 minutes before falling asleep, then that is what you must do. If you need to do someyoga after the kids are in bed, do it. If you have to play video games to decompress, then do it.

Kids may scream at each other, and husbands may fall asleep on couches, but you will have time for yourself. This is my decree. Find time for you and all will be right with the world.